Well my husband didn't get to come home last night. They got released from the drill center really late because they were waiting for some guys to bring some weapons from up north - oh wait - they were out in a garage behind the drill center the whole time. We also had a pretty bad snow storm here last night. So it would have meant my husband would have been driving at least an hour (depending on road conditions), going to bed as soon as he got home, and then having to get up very early in the morning, only to have to brave the terrible roads again to drive back. Needless to say I still wanted him to come home. But that's the strange thing about being in love with someone. Even though it hurt so much I knew that I had to put his safety and frankly his sleep before my own needs. If he had decided to come home anyway I certainly wouldn't have tried to stop him. Even though it broke my heart I had to tell him that it was okay for him to just stay up there.

Well we still don't know where my husband's company is going (of course even if I did I wouldn't publish it here). They don't even have a deployment date yet. You know it seems like if they were going to activate a company then they might do it when they had a place for them to go and a time for them to leave. Not the Marine Corps! I can be as sensitive as the next girl but when it comes to my husband having to be away from me for a year OR TWO then I'm an emotional car wreck. Before my husband got activated I didn't even like it when he had to go to drill for the weekend because I missed him like crazy. Now the Marine Corps is asking . . . no telling me, that I have to be separated from my husband for up to two years! But don't worry because we'll get our housing paid for and we'll even get $100 a month to pay for him have to be away from me. Yay! That just makes it all better. I am simply not emotionally prepared to deal with this. I keep praying that God will keep him here with me and I know that nothing is impossible through Him if we believe, but it's not looking like it's going to happen. I don't want to start praying for peace about the situation because that means that he really is going to have to leave me and I don't know if I can face that yet.