You know the expression, "Waiting for the other shoe to drop"? Well that's kind of how the Marine Corps is making me feel right now. It's like I almost can't go on with my life because I'm sitting here waiting for them to drop a big, ole combat boot right on all our hopes and dreams. And I hope that no one thinks that I'm a terrible person for this, but when I heard about the Columbia, after my initial shock and sadness, I honestly thought, "Well maybe this tragedy will help to cool Bush down and divert people's attention from war." I'm not proud of it but that's what I thought. I know that anyone who could have averted the Columbia situation would have and I can't help but wonder why the outcry for peace or at least UN backing hasn't been more. If the unexpected deaths of 7 people brought this much emotion then shouldn't the almost guaranteed loss of life that a war would involve require more consideration?

So my Husband and I have been waiting to receive word that he is going to be activated. So far nothing. And I'm happy about that. Whenever we've heard that he's going to be activated every phone call makes me want to run and hide. I know that chances are I will someday have to face the reality that he'll be leaving, but I've only been married for five months now and I'm sorry but I want to just enjoy being married right now. (And by the way that's a sarcastic I'm sorry because I am not going to apologize to the marine corps for wanting to be with my husband).